I’m being honest about myself

Yes, I might be a little bit weirder than I look.

Yes, I might suffer from a slight depression.

No, I’m not thinking about suicide.

No, I’ve never really tried to commit a suicide.

Yes, I’m sure that eventually everything is going to be okay.

Yes, I still think that life is beautiful.

No, I’m not taking any drugs (neither prescribed nor any other).

No, I’m not going to take any drugs.

Yes, I am a little bit morbid.

Yes, I enjoy the gore things.

No, I don’t think that’s crazy.

No, I’m not going to try any of those things/kill anyone/hurt myself.

Yes, I’m against self-harming.

Yes, I think you’re stronger than that.

No, I’ve never cut myself.

No, I don’t think it would help me.

Yes, I’m a smoker.

Yes, I know that’s bad.

No, it’s not that easy to stop.

No, I don’t do it because I find it cool.

Yes, I’m a little bit of a psychological masochist.

Yes, I know I cause my own problems.

No, I don’t know how to stop doing it.

No, it’s not that easy not to think too much.

Yes, I am a little bit of a martyr.

Yes, sometimes I enjoy that.

No, I don’t like to talk about my feelings.

No, I don’t really like too much physical contact.

Yes, I am a pretty good actor.

Yes,  I’m proud of it.

No, I won‘t show you my real face if I don’t trust you.

No, you can’t get my trust back once you have lost it.

Yes, I can take a lot.

Yes, sometimes I am too naive.

No, I don’t like to argue.

No, I don’t like to hurt people by harsh words and too painful truth.

Yes, I try to be nice to everyone.

Yes, I realize that some people walk on me then.

No, my patience is not endless.

No, I won’t take revenge of you.

Yes, I will erase you from my life.

Yes, I will do that intentionally.

No, my life is not perfect.

No, I don’t think it’s too bad either.

Yes, I realize my problems.

Yes, I’m trying to do something about them.

No, I’m not overreacting.

No, I don’t want to draw attention.

Yes, I really do find all these things important.

Yes, I really do mean what I post here.

No, I don’t care whether you like this.

No, I don’t want you to comment on any of this by saying how crazy I am.

Yes, I keep too many things to myself.

Yes, this is the place where you can get to know me better than anywhere else.

So don’t take advantage of it.

May 5th | reblog